I will not give up

I had to remind myself of this today. You see we are in the final month of the semester and classes are really heating up. Papers are due and finals are coming. I worked out with the guys to relieve some stress and stopped dead in my tracks because of a nasty low of 32mg/dl as if school pressures are not enough I have to fight diabetes in the mix. You hear all the time how you are stronger because of your disease or a better person because of it but at the end of the day I wanted to cry. I felt weak and defeated. We were all having a great time walking back from the soccer field which is about 3 Min's from our dorms and bam it hit me like a ton of bricks. I stopped and tested and of course it is low. I am amazed at my friends though they did not fret or run nope they stopped with me. As if I was not embarrassed enough one of our campus police saw us and stopped when he saw me test. He knows I am diabetic and said get in the car and took me to the dining hall for some much needed juice. Now I know that as diabetics we are strong and should never be embarrassed of a disease we did not ask for or cause but it is just those little moments that I just wish for a moment that all was right in my diabetes world and I was always at perfect levels. I then snap out of it and get back to reality and realize that I need not be embarrassed instead I need to be grateful for the friends and support I have to help me each day.I did not give up today instead I drank my juice and got back to college life. On a side note all of my friends just signed up to do the jdrf walk with me this year!! but more on that later.

And this is why.....

This is the leftovers of a terrible low that just did not want to come up. I am sharing this because this is why I want a cure. I should have been writing my history paper on the Antebellum period, but no instead I spent an hour trying to fight this low. It was a stubborn 34 mg/dl. I am lucky to have an amazing group of friends who are joining me in my JDRF walk this year. It is going to be amazing and this post is just part of the reason as to why I walk because in all honesty a high sucks just as bad but until the cure is a reality I will con't to walk and fight. To have the people I have in my life willing to join the walk and raise the money even though they personally do not deal with the disease is just wonderful and I feel amazingly blessed by it.

Stressing lows

It has to be really weird but I am stressing a lot lately and my blood sugars are dropping because of it. Should I not be fighting highs? I think I would rather fight the highs seeing as I do not feel the lows (thank goodness for pinky my CGM) I am used to blood sugars more like this 

I work hard for this stability which is difficult in college especially nursing school. I think this has to do with the heat seeing as C (the guy diabetic I meet) said he is dealing with the same lows. in fact we were running in to the chow hall at the same time before lunch looking for juice to treat the lows. he was 54 mg/dl and I was 43 mg/dl. So we got to talking and found each is dealing with the same issues. So we decided that this was not a magic cure of our diabetes but more likely the heat since that is where we are similar with walking in it all the time going to different classes. Glad I found another D friend it helps.